There comes a time when you just have to admit when someone just isn’t that into you. When a guy can’t spare 5 minutes of his time a day to get to know you, then he doesn’t want to know you. He’s not interested and he probably has someone else on the side, or your the person the side and that other person is his main dish.
Been there, done that. I don’t like being somebody’s side dish and I don’t want to be someone’s main dish while he’s sampling all those other sides.
Back to square one of being single. I think I’m going to stick with it. It’s easier and less disappointing. I deleted all of his contact information from my computer and my phone.
Anyways, I think I’m almost ready to lock my hair. I’m tired of wearing it in a ponytail. Not cute or sexy though I’ve been seeing folks on tv wearing sexy ponytails. I think it has more to do with their hair not frizzing up like crazy. It’s pretty hard to keep 16 inches of hair from frizzing when it’s humid or there’s an ocean nearby. Giant pom pom on a little nerf ball head.
I went to that ABC writing fellowship Q&A this past Monday. I think I’m going to try doing it but for next year. I finally know which show I want to spec for. It took me a while to figure it out because every show I thought about writing a spec script for got canceled and they want specs for shows currently in production. I want to spec script for Dollhouse. I totally get that show. Consensual servitude. I understand that. I did five years in the Army! Only I remember every minute of it. I so wish I could have some of those memories wiped.
I won’t be applying for the fellowship this year because I want to have at least two scripts ready and I only have a month to prepare, which isn’t enough time. Not if I want to write something great. Besides I have to focus on my business. If I can get some extra money coming in from that every month I will be okay.
As far as the job search, I haven’t been looking. But I think I know what I must do. I can’t leave California if I want to take a shot at screenwriting but I also don’t want to stay here.