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Archive for January, 2010

Day 31

I had a good day. I went to church this morning but the sermon was about parenting and since I don’t have children, it really didn’t apply to me. And it made me feel sad. Got me thinking about how I don’t have any kids. But I’d rather be single and without kids than single and with kids.

The evening service was much better and lifted my spirits.

I spoke to my dad today. It’s always refreshing to hear from him. He’s sending me something and I can’t wait to see what it is. I hope it’s beef jerky.

I need to get some laundry done.


Day 30

I don’t feel like blogging. I hate spending time in front of my computer. I used to love sitting in front of my computer surfing the net. Now, I can’t stand the thought of it.

I prefer a good book. I think I’m getting old, which is okay as long as I age gracefully.

I must be off to washing my hair. I had planned on going to a beauty school and having someone else do it but changed my mind. I dislike paying people to do something I can do better myself.


Day 29

I’m calling it an early night for once in a long time. I’m usually getting back from the place that can’t be mentioned late with barely enough energy to get anything else done.

I just read read Exodus 21 and 22. I think it’s interesting how everything seems to be done in increments of 7. (This post should have been written on a seventh day, week or month but I didn’t read these chapters until today).  Chapter 21 verse 2 says that if a man serves his master for 6 years, then in the 7th year he shall go free.

I wonder if it has anything to do with God creating the Earth in 6 days and resting on the 7th. The number 7 is associated with good luck. It just got me thinking if I will see this pattern repeated throughout the Bible.


Day 28

I hate it when my browser crashes. I had an almost perfect post and then there was nothing. Firefox restarted and the post I had spend a glorious 10 minutes writing was lost.

So much for autosave.

I don’t like Private Practice. I don’t like any of the women on the show. Not one has redeeming qualities.

I need to get to writing (on paper) two posts I intend on writing.

Off to happy writing.


Day 27

I don’t have a whole lot of time before I hit the sack, but I just wanted to post something. I went to church tonight and heard a wonderful sermon. I will blog more about some of the things I learned in Winter Revival series.

I also want to blog about something I read in the AV Press. Somewhat disturbing actually. Or it might not be. It all depends on how you see the situation. I have made no attempts to hide my suspicions about Islam and Muslims in America.


Day 26

The rain is back and my sinuses seem to be going crazy. Is it possible to be allergic to rain? What a thing to be allergic to when I’m not fond of the dry desert. Sure the desert has its advantages like I never really have to worry about frizzy hair from humidity but on the down side, it’s just so dang brown all year long.

It seems there maybe some folks with with five-finger discount syndrome in my neighborhood. I hate not being able to have something delivered to my house for fear someone will take it. What can I do? I can’t request different delivery service. I think I’m going to try to request UPS hold my packages.


Day 25

I cannot describe how much better I feel now that I stopped taking all that medication the doctor had given me. I don’t think prescription Flonase dries up nasal passages at all. If anything, it seems to make your nose run. I wasn’t suffering from blocked sinuses but from a nasal drip. I stopped using the nasal spray and my nose started drying up.

Gross talk. I need to get to bed. I have an early day.


Day 24

I can’t remember what I said I was going to blog about last night. It must not have been too important.

It didn’t rain today. That’s a plus. I think it’s suppose to rain tomorrow. I hate the rain.

The good news is my asthma seems to be under control. My nose has stopped running for the most part. I think all the medications the doctor gave me was the cause of my prolonged illness. Sometimes prescribed dope isn’t good for you. I think the Flonase was the worst. My nose just wouldn’t dry up.

I can’t wait for Valentine’s day this year. I have to go buy something cute and red or something. I want to wear my boots again. I definitely have to wear some toe socks.

I need to get a load of laundry in the washer and get to bed. I’m hoping to get off work early tomorrow.


Day 23

I went to a BBQ in Simi Valley today. I had fun. I will write more about it tomorrow. I’m really tired and want to get some rest. I have church in the morning.


Day 22

I just barely got home from work. I don’t have anything new to report. It rained all day. I saw the sun this morning before I went into work but got off so late the only energy I have left I will reserve for taking my clothes off and getting to bed.

My dad did send me some spam on viagra. I will try to blog more tomorrow. I need to get some rest so I can make the drive down to Toastmasters. Yay. I think tomorrow will be my last trip to this particular group.


Day 21

I haven’t worked on my speech for Toastmasters at all. I know what I want to say but I’m not sure I can say it without completely slamming another member’s speech. My speech is a rebuttal to a speech I heard back in December.

In her speech, she :

  1. slammed welfare (don’t have a problem with that),
  2. described a dreary Social Security Office (don’t have a problem with that either)
  3. said America needs socialized health care (I have major issues with that)
  4. people should have a cap on their earning potential with $100 million being the most a person can earn (WTF? Is this not America? Has she not heard of Free Enterprise??)
  5. America needs to be like Denmark because they don’t have homeless people (Yeah but they have lots of angry Muslims [remember the Mohammad cartoons?])

I totally wish it was kosher to shove her British head up her British @ss.

I was watching a little of Fox News today. They were basically analyzing how much Bush spent his 8 years versus Obama in his 1 year in the White House. Bush spent a lot of money but Obama has spent 4 times the amount in 1 year!!! ONE YEAR!!!!

I hate socialism.


Day 20

It rained really hard today. I wanted to get some pictures but by the time I got off work it was already dark and raining hard. I didn’t want to get water on my iPhone.

I got some more folks interested in starting a business. I can’t wait to keep sharing the business. Too bad they are already saved. I share the gospel with them, too.

I better get to reading more of my Bible. I didn’t go to church tonight because of the rain and my asthma attacks. So, if I’m not going to be in church, I might as well study my Bible.

Good night.


Day 19

I don’t have a whole lot to blog about. I’m actually trying to get caught up on the Bible verses I’m supposed to memorize before tomorrow. I also have to write my speech for Toastmasters. I’m actually thinking about ditching Toastmasters this Saturday to work on getting caught up on getting my expenditures and travel logs all typed up for taxes.


Day 18

Today is a holiday but it didn’t seem like there was much to celebrate. It’s been raining all day and the sky was this awful gray color and not the usual blue sky I’m used to seeing just about every day of the year.

I can’t wait until spring. I love photographing the poppies.

I had a blast last night. I was able to forget about everything going on or not going on and really listen to the guest speakers. I need to get over myself. I have this fear of calling people. I just need to pick up the phone and do it. It’s just sometimes, when I call people, I get the whole sobby drama-filled story. And when I give them simply advice on how to avoid being in such situations, they reject my advice only to continue on with their ‘woe is me’ moment.

Please don’t let me turn into one of those people.

Gotta get busy doing other things.


Day 17

I had a long day today. I went to church, then to a baby shower, and then I drove to Bakersfield for Dream Night. It was awesome. I don’t feel like blogging anything else. It’s pretty late and I just want to go to bed.


Day 16

I went shopping for a baby shower today and apparently I spent way too much money. I did buy for two babies (two families) but I don’t know what the spending limit is for a baby shower.

My mother actually made me feel guilty for not being cheap. My mom happens to be the cheapest person I know.

My Internet is still out but I’m blogging anyway. Nothing is going to keep me from making my commitment to blogging once a day. I might not be able to post but I’m still going to write. I think God is trying to tell me something. I really don’t need to do another 365 day project. I should wait to do it in two years after I get my business up and running.

I figured out what was wrong with my Internet. I accidently knocked the telephone cord out of the wall part way. It looked like it was in all the way but it wasn’t.

I had a long day today. I went to church, then to a baby shower, and then I drove to Bakersfield for Dream Night. It was awesome. I don’t feel like blogging anything else. It’s pretty late and I just want to go to bed


Day 15

The Internet was down last night so I couldn’t post to my blogs. I met a new person today. I didn’t get his phone number but I least I met someone new. Anyways, we were watching the news. If you don’t already know then you must live in a box with no windows or doors or Internet, but Haiti had a devastating earthquake.

I’ve seen the images and it seems like the quake wouldn’t have been so bad if the dwellings were compliant with some kind of earthquake building regulation. Not that making buildings more earthquake resistant can save anyone in a 7 (geez I can’t seem to remember the term for the strength of an earthquake) but it sure helps.

Anyways, the gentleman I met today commented about how poor Haiti is (the poorest in the Western Hemisphere) but none of the richer countries have tried to help this country.

I told him about my cousins who we’ve tried to help, not by giving money but by giving advice (go to school, keep a steady job, stay welfare) and we (the folks who live a better life) are met with very hostile threats of a beat down.

Give a man a fish, and you feed him for a day. Teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. – Anonymous (I think. Google was down and so I couldn’t give proper attribution.)

I’d like to add to that saying: If a man turns down the opportunity to learn how to fish, then he doesn’t want to eat.

I will be seeing what my church is doing to help with Haiti.


Day 14

I should be out getting my name and number but my headache, sinuses, and cough wouldn’t make me a good candidate for meeting people. Who would want to shake hands with someone who’s coughing and blowing their nose every 5 minutes?

I’m hoping to nip this thing in the bud but I have a feeling what ever triggered this is in the office I sit in. I think I might be allergy to my office.

I feel much better when I leave the room. I’ve been taking it much easier than I had planned because of my health issues. Tonight, I’m going to get to bed before 8:30. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow after a few more hours of sleep tonight.


Day 13

Today’s post is brought to you by the number 13 in honor of the thirteenth day of the month.

Too bad it isn’t Friday.

I learned some great things in Bible study today. I have a whole lot of highlighting to do tomorrow. I need to set my daily schedule to paper and start making some phone calls.

My asthma is still giving me trouble.

I think the combination of cigarettes and oil reed diffuser triggered my initial attack, which is why the medications I’ve been given aren’t working.

So much for blogging. I don’t feel like it right now. All I want to do is go to bed.


Day 12

So much for going to bed early. I spend the evening in emergency care at Kaiser. My asthma has really been giving me issues. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest and my throat hurts from constantly trying to clear my air way.

Other than that my day went by okay. I really need to get over my fears because I’m tired of stuff. Stuff I wouldn’t have to be bothered with if I would just hurry and build my business. Got to get it built so I don’t have to worry.

I’ve been reading more of The Personality Tree. I still don’t quite know what my personality is. Does that mean I have multiple personalities? I have a little bit of all four of the personalities described in the book.

Is it possible to forget someone lives in California? I had a friend text me today asking how far I live from Dallas? My answer: California.

Who or how can someone forget that? I can totally understand if this person was from another country as I’ve actually had someone from another country not have a clue about the difference between California and Colorado; however, I still don’t see how anybody could mistake those two states. California was the state for Baywatch!!!!

Bikinis and cheap looking, fake-breasted blondes.

Dang. Anyway, I tried to sell the guy some supplements because he desperately needs something to help jog his memory.

I think he’s been talking to more than one female and can’t get it straight as to which female he’s been talking to.


Day 11

I just sent my last email for the year. Just kidding. I don’t think I will ever not use email as my main source of communication.

It seems I’ll be traveling to D.C. in June. I have a friend that will be living there and I have some cousins who live there. I think I will spend about 5 days there all together. Do we have any holidays in June?

My asthma attacks feel like they are going away already. It could also be because I used my inhaler but who cares, right? All I need is to breathe better. I’m sick of suffocating. And I think the steriods the doc gave me is starting to shrivel up my tiny ta-tas.

I have absolutely nothing new to report. I still haven’t gone out to get my names and numbers yet. I’m working on it. I had a missed opportunity today. I’m almost certain if I had stood there long enough to talk to this guy a little longer, I would have gotten his phone number. Not for dating, but for business.

I must go to bed now.

Did anyone notice I posted two Day 9s? I’m totally losing it. I think there might be more in my inhalers than inhaler. ;-)


Day 10

Today was okay. I went to vision night at church tonight. This year will be an exciting year.

I need something to do other than all the stuff I have going on. I don’t like to be idle and some level of stress makes me feel productive.

I managed to go a week without eating desserts. Next week I will try caffeine/soda. This should be easy.


Day 9

I wonder if Dollhouse is getting cancelled. The storyline is going in such a way that I don’t think the show can recover. Everybody on the show seems to be dying off or being changed in such a way the show will not last another season. (Okay just googled the issue. It seems Dollhouse has been canceled.)

What a bummer.

I don’t have much to write about today. Sorry about how short yesterday’s post was. I only had ten minutes to post it before midnight.

I am reading Your Personality Tree by Florence Littauer. It’s interesting because I don’t seem know myself. Every word in each category describes me. I could have someone else help me figure out my personality type but I have not one person who knows me well. Out of the four personality types (Sanguine, Choleric, Phlegmatic, Melancholy), I think I’m Sanguine/Choleric. You’ll have to read the book to know all about the personality types. I don’t feel like listing a short description of each.

I must get some cleaning done so I can work on my business. Take care.


Iron sharpening Iron

I went to a boardplan tonight and was rejuvenated with positive thoughts about the business. I love being around the people in this business. They are so positive and so encouraging and they just want to help. Iron sharpens iron.